Who sadly passed away on 1 July, 2020.
Happy heavenly birthday to you my darling Nicola.
I was never prepared to live the rest of my life without you. My life was complete with you by my side.
Slowly I’m learning grief is like the ocean; it comes on in waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All I can do is learn to swim these waves of emotions.
Small things can trigger a fresh wave of grief…a smell, a look or perhaps a song…within seconds I am transported back to when we had it all, we had each other. I wanted nothing else, but to have you share my life with me. This is a moment when time stands still, time means nothing. Know that my unspoken thoughts, love, and spirit are with you always.
Knowing that place between sleep and awake, the place you can still remember your dreaming. This is where I will always meet you to hold you and to love you, that’s where I will be waiting for you.
There will always be a sense of wonder, a sense of longing for what could have been…It breaks my heart to think one day I’ll have to do an Easter egg hunt with our grandchildren on my own, the same way we did it with our children.
If a star was to fall each time I thought of you, the sky would be empty.
With all our love always, from Kevin, Ryan, Lauren, Ron Ron, Lydia, Josh and baby bump xxx.
