In loving memory of a wonderful mother, who passed away 19 January, 2013. You were such a lovely lady, I was so lucky to have you as my Mum, but it makes losing you so hard, and nothing could prepare me for that.
Now no sorrow can ever be as sad, or laughter as joyous, for losing you means there is always a cloud on the horizon, a shadow in front of the sun. I still can’t believe that I have lost you, it’s too horrific to comprehend. I distract myself from thinking too deep for then it might seem real. No words can convey how much I love you and miss you. Only those who knew you could understand just how special you were. When something happens my first thought is to tell you, then I realise you are not here, so I sit and tell you at the cemetery instead, but that’s not how I imagined it would be. Whatever I say to you I can only tell you, I can no longer share it with you. I want to give you flowers and see your smile, not put them on your grave. I miss your hugs, I miss your smile, I miss you just being there. I miss our time together and your love, kindness and support. You have left so many lovely memories and thoughts I will treasure, But nothing will take away the heartache of you not being here. Always in my thoughts along with Dad.
With much love, Jane, Jess and Lucy xxxx.
